Dating women use to seem to be a hassle so instead I would look for se

Dating women use to seem to be a hassle so instead I would look for sexy woman to fool around with it because I never wanted to be the boyfriend. All of my friends had a wife and all they will do was talk about how wonderful their wives were; and when it came time for me to speak all I could do was talk about my late-nights with multiple women. And when I was done telling my story I would receive the same look from all of them, a look of intrigue and disappointment. They told me that it may seem fun and exciting to be sleeping with different woman rather than actually dating women, but it wouldn’t make me happy in the long run; but I didn’t care. Commitment was not on my mind and was not soon to be because too many times had I given my time to receive nothing but heartache and long hours of talking. Talking for all that time and making no progress was the most useless aspect of a relationship that I could just not comprehend. Whenever I woke up in the morning I would check my phone to see if I had a text message from some girl I had met earlier in the week. Every time I checked there would be a message saying how we should meet and get to know one another better and that’s when I would just press delete. I knew where “let’s get to know each other better” was supposed to lead to and I didn’t want to go there. But sometimes I did text them back and say we should meet, but I only had one thing on my mind and that was getting her back in bed. So when we did meet I would follow along with her attempts to try and get to understand me. I had mastered the illusion of being interested and it worked to perfection every time. I decided that when I was forty-years old I would decide to begin dating women and find one to settle down with stop all these games.

I received a call from my uncle later that afternoon; he told me that his wife was in the hospital. I rushed over to the hospital where he was waiting for me and then we went to go see his wife. We walked into the room slowly and my uncle sat down next to her and held her hand, I saw love in a light that I had never seen before. My uncle told me thanks for coming and so did his wife. I felt better that she was smiling and looked well. The doctor came in and said she would be able to go home the next day. I left them and even though they were in the hospital, I wanted to have someone to confide within. I went home and called a girl that I had really enjoyed spending the night with and asked her if she wanted to go out on a date on the weekend, she was hesitant, but agreed. It was against my belief to be dating women, but I wanted to be happy. The girl and I went out and had a good time at the mall and the movies. I drove her back home and kissed her goodnight, then went home. I went to bed and thought about how much work it was to go on a date let alone be in a relationship. I know I wanted love, but I didn’t want to put all that effort into it. Love seemed nice, but having fun and putting little effort seemed better to me at this point in my life so I gave up on dating women and went back to my old ways. I wasn’t in love, but I was happy.